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I have found you -
The one my soul can't breathe without
The one that beats my heart alive
He has returned unto me
The sky has never been this blue
A rose has never smelled this sweet
His touch calms and soothes my weary soul
His breath awakens my flesh
Each kiss is the first
My heart swells each time he is near
My body moves in time with his desire
Even our worst day is better than all the ones before
Days are full of possibilities - Nights so full of love
I no longer ache to dream - reality is so much better
A gift of love more than I could have ever hoped for...

For: You

END

The end is where I begin

Trying to break my heart when it's broken

Trying to drowned me when I'm under water

I'll keep screaming until the picture is clear

Wont let my scars disappear

Don't put your shit on me, pain, fear, anxiety, despair

Love doesn't come with stipulations

- that's just manipulation

I'll keep screaming until the picture is clear

Nothing left to hurt, tear, or break

This end is where I begin

Honesty

Searching for something I cannot find
Running inside of my escape
I prefer the cold
The breeze is silent, non-demanding
as it caresses my cheek and plays with my curls
The constant pull between feminine and masculine
How tiresome it becomes - how bored I am
Always saying one thing - yet producing another
The game - hiding from honesty
Why is the truth so hard?
We lie even to ourselves -
Do we all live the lie
Is chaos the answer
Can I just please find silence and peace
or will I never find what I am searching for...

Forever

Would forever be long enough
to love you
To hold you
to talk with you
To listen to the lullaby of your breath
To wrap myself inside of your strong arms
Would forever be long enough
to wake each morning beside you
To swim inside of your deep gaze
I love to have your stare upon me
To have your mind hold the thought of me
to be able to close my eyes & exhale
Would forever be long enough
or will you slip through my heart
Like a sunset-
beautiful & perfect but only for a few moments

CPR

Tearing, twisted, shattering
This must be my heart dying
One last time
My broken heart has been shattered one to many times
I'll never give it away again
Carefully, I've picked up the pieces and locked them away
Locked for protection, locked to never trust again, locked for good
Clinging to life, the poor pieces of my heart barely beat
Lies, Control, Power, Manipulation
Were the focus of this chess game
I was blinded by the the thought that I was in the game too
Even resuscitation will not save my wounded heart now

Butterfly

I'm trapped inside this cocoon
but can't they see that I've already got my wings
I'm ready to take flight and fly away
I'm aching to be free
They keep tearing my wings
Pinning me down inside this box
I see my path -
but they keep standing in my way

ATH 2010

The Problem with Perfect

That perfect kiss - the one that makes your soul throb, your knees weak, your lips tingle
When your eyes lock as your souls speak - he knows before you speak the words aloud
The perfect night, the air warm the music plays and our energy perfect
Once you've had perfect - nothing can ever be the same
Expectations left unsaid
Two captains trying to steer the same ship
The wood splinters and tears
Life & the outside world get in the way
Your heart broken, scared, jaded, afraid
Then he -- well he becomes the perfect...stranger

ATH 2010