Exist

As I lay here inside of myself

I am still unsure of the person I've become

I am happy - mistake me not

Nonetheless I am ever aware that

Who I am, where I am, what I am has in every way been molded and forged by you

It is inescapable, unavoidable, unmistakable

Does that make me less than whole

Will I ever know

Or is this - the path less chosen my destiny

I am who I am - I should be grateful

I am blessed I never forget that

But it is the unanswered questions that force my quill to the paper

In the endless river of words - do the answers float carelessly by

Am I always trying to swim upstream

Questions - that may never be answered

And yet still I exist...

ATP. 2004